Pergi

Pergi

Posted by Avriana Indarwasti on 11:08 pm in poetry,

Ditunggunya takdir orang lain menjadi miliknya

Dia berharap dan sedikit memaksa

Tapi dia tak bisa berbuat apa-apa

Hanya mencaci sembari berdoa
Entah Tuhan mau mengabulkan atau sebaliknya

Tidak kah dia menyadari
Bahwa dia juga sedang dinanti
Tapi seperti biasa ia pasti tak peduli
Baginya ia ingin mencinta bukan dicintai
Lalu pergilah sang penanti. Lagi.

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Wdyt?

Wdyt?

Posted by Avriana Indarwasti on 11:40 pm in mine,

       So, in this post I just want to share someone's thought about best friend, lover, relation, and everything between. Why I share someone's thought? Because I agree with his opinion, it's like open my mind about that topic. And it's absolutely happening in this era, how teenage or even adult feel it too. Read then tell me wdyt? 

http://zarry-hendrik.tumblr.com/post/104028866484/persahabatan-lawan-jenis

Credit to; Zarry Hendrik.

You are welcome! :)

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Kita dan Hujan

Kita dan Hujan

Posted by Avriana Indarwasti on 11:07 pm in poetry,

Saat yang lain sedang mencoba

Kau menang dengan tangan hampa

Tak perlu banyak cara

Kau bangunkan hati yang lama terjaga

Tak butuh waktu lama

Kau tunjukkan segalanya

Yang membuat mata dan hati terkesima

Oleh segala yang sebenarnya mempesona

Tanpa kata, tanpa paksa, tanpa bicara

Dilakukan saja apa adanya

Entah tidak atau sengaja

Semua terlihat nyata

Ada kamu, malam selalu diiringi bahagia

Jika tiada, satu hari menjadi binasa

Jangan kau coba, karena aku pernah tahu rasanya

Bisa kamu simpan rahasia?

Biar hujan saja yang tahu semua tentang kita.

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Klise

Klise

Posted by Avriana Indarwasti on 9:44 pm in mine, random,

I used to think one day we'd tell the story of us,
How we met and the sparks flew instantly,

-Now I'm searching the room for an empty seat,
'Cause lately I don't even know what page you're on.

-So many things that I wish you knew,
So many walls that I can't break through.

-Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking,
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah?

-And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now.
-
And you're doing your best to avoid me.
How I was losing my mind when I saw you here,
-

Oh, I'm scared to see the ending,
Why are we pretending this is nothing?
I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how,
I've never heard silence quite this loud
-
This is looking like a contest,
Of who can act like they care less,

-So many things that you wished I knew,
-
The end.

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Marah

Marah

Posted by Avriana Indarwasti on 9:12 am in poetry,

Datang karena haus
Pulang lalu puas
Kini ada yang baru
Yang lama dilupakan
Tidak menuntut untuk diingat
Tapi aku ini apa?
Ketika hilang seketika berpura-pura
Salah satu diantara kita
Ternyata belum siap
Sulit mengakui tapi kenyataan terlihat
Namun keputusan sudah dibuat
Sekarang aku tahu
Jangan mencari jika ingin bertemu
Apalagi mengatasnamakannya dengan rindu
Karena aku sudah tidak bersamamu
Melihat ujung rambutmu saja aku tak mau

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Warn.

Warn.

Posted by Avriana Indarwasti on 9:14 pm in mine,

       I wish people enjoy my post. At least they read my poems and feel it. Not making a joke of it. I made that poems based on my life. Well, it's not my "entire" life just some of it cause I'm not gonna let everyone knows about my whole life by read it on my blog. That's not simple as that. So if one of you laugh on it, means that you laugh at my "life". How dare you are laugh at someone's life?! Then me and Magic! said, "Why you gotta be so rude?!".
        I made a poem based on my feeling that day. Even it's a good day or not, I keep writing. If some of you doesn't like to read my blog "nicely" (you know what I mean) then you'd better change the url go to Youtube or some of existing website than open and laugh at someone's blog which is contain of her life. But I really appreciate for those people who read and enjoy my posts on my blog, it's okay if you didn't leave a comment means that you are a silent reader. That's better than a louder reader who just making a joke of my posts. Well, if you said that promoting my blog in front of our friend than I should say "I don't need that way cause I can do it by myself. Thank you so much." Done with you. :)

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Kepada Kamu

Kepada Kamu

Posted by Avriana Indarwasti on 8:13 pm in poetry,

Kamu
Sosokmu yang membuat senyuman diantara gelak tawa
Sebagai pelipur lara, kau obati luka dengan rasa bahagia
Di dekatmu degup di hati takkan henti berbunyi
Membuang rindu dengan sebersit auramu
Kau layaknya tinggal disetiap malam yang kulalui
Kamu pusat titik rindu. Aku merotasimu dalam setiap putarannya
Satu lesung pipi di senyummu adalah bom paling ampuh
Yang melemahkan seluruh syaraf di tubuh
Jutaan kamu di kepala meluluhkan logika
Tak butuh banyak putaran waktu untuk jatuh kepadamu
Kamu
Adalah bahagiaku yang tak berujung

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A Man Like Him

A Man Like Him

Posted by Avriana Indarwasti on 8:49 am in mine,

       OMG did you have watch One Direction's new vclip? God! My boys just made it for me! Excited! Lol no. Steal My Girl was made for their fans around the world including me. :)) In their video Harry Styles has Love, Niall Horan has Light, Liam Payne has Power, Louis Tomlinson has Danger, and Zayn Malik has Mystery. As always my favorite is Louis, I love my Danger :p Can't wait to meet them next year! I can't even imagine what I am suppose to do when I see them live in front of my eyes. Probably I will cry, scream their name as loud as I can, and throw a rose then my sweet stuff for Louis. I wish he take it and keep it until he back to his hometown. I also made it for Eleanor my beauty enemy, huh?

       I don't know why but I really love Louis in this video, because he looks very simple, hot, charming, danger, taking a risk, and I just can't handle it even he only wears black shirt and glasses! God please send me a man like him but in a same religion hehe. He's just too perfect for me. 

*P.s Clue: I hate a boy who too childish, labile, weak, complicated, too possessive, dependent with others, maudlin, mellow, dramatic, and fragile. Because I'm not looking for a boy but a true man. If you get what I mean. :)

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Bisu

Bisu

Posted by Avriana Indarwasti on 6:40 am in poetry,

Hari itu terlalu cerah bagi jiwa yang enggan terbangun dari tempatnya bernaung. Ya, tentu suatu keterpaksaan membuat dirinya harus berada di tengah lapangan sepagi itu. Sudah tampak ribuan orang berdiri dibarisannya masing-masing. Tampak wajah nan kalut karena diselimuti kelelahan. Aku hanya memandangi orang-orang sekitarku mencoba menerka-nerka perasaan mereka satu-satu. Mengasyikan memang. Ikut dalam perasaan orang-orang tanpa harus berada disamping mereka. Lalu ada suatu perasaan yang belum terjamah olehku. Perasaan seseorang yang berdiri dibawah pohon pinus. Dia tampak membisu. Sama sepertiku, dia memandangi sekitarnya. Lalu aku memandanginya dari kejauhan. Terbesit olehku sebuah pertanyaan. Jika apa yang dia lakukan sama sepertiku, sudahkah dia memperhatikan aku lebih dulu? 

Kamu yang berslayer tosca, jelas sudah mengalihkan perhatianku.

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Missed.

Missed.

Posted by Avriana Indarwasti on 9:49 pm in mine,

       Hi ppl! Aduh kangen banget gue ngeblog huahuaaa. There are so many new stories that I should tell you. Well..maybe some. As reminder aja gue ngetik ini dalam keadaan bising karena dangdutan yang dipadukan musik rock gajelas dikosan gue-_- Hiks. But wait? Ana ngekos? Emang Ana kuliah dimana? Mungkin sebagian kalian yang emang rajin bacain atau sekedar iseng-iseng aja buka blog gue bingung dan bertanya-tanya. Atau mungkin gaada yang baca? #miris Ok, back to the point. Setelah berbulan-bulan gue hilang dari dunia per blog-an sebenernya gue sedang sibuk ngurus kuliah beserta keperluannya. Oiya sebelum gue kuliah ditempat sekarang gue juga sebenernya udah keterima di Universitas Telkom Bandung jurusan Sistem Informasi. Gue juga keterima di Universitas Dipenegoro jurusan Bahasa Inggris dan Universitas Trilogi jurusan Agribisnis beasiswa juga 75% dari hasil tes gue di IPB dan bbrp universitas lain yang tiba-tiba ngasih gue beasiswa untuk kuliah disana. Gue juga gangerti. Terus gue milih mana? Yap. Gue milih CCIT-FTUI. Lol.

       "Na, keterima di UI? Wah selamat ya!" "Na, keterima di FTUI jurusan apa?" "Lewat jalur apa? Wah selamat ya gak nyangka bisa ngisi stand UI nih tahun depan." Well itu baru sebagian pertanyaan dan ucapan selamat dari orang-orang terdekat gue. Thank you a lot but actually I'm not 100% an UI's student. How come? Gue capek jelasinnya jadi cukup denger kata FTUI aja semua orang langsung nganggep gue anak UI. Lebih tepatnya sih gue anak FTUI tapi bukan anak UI. Loh??? Disini gue jurusan Teknik Informatika, jadi ini tuh program aliansinya FTUI sama bbrp universitas yang terkait. Kayak UIN sama PNJ and I choose PNJ. There was some reasons that I can't tell bcs it's not important to share and I'm too lazy to write that things here hahaha. Skip it. Gue di CCIT inshaAllah 2 tahun kelar dan lanjutin di PNJ. Jadi ya ijazah gue dari PNJ but CCIT-FTUI will give me an international certificate from India called NIIT it helps me through find a job. Bisa dibilang sih gue mahasiswa samar-samar di UI tapi ada di FT wkwk. Gue bisa ngerasain semua fasilitas di FTUI-PNJ and walk like an engineering student well actually I am. Sounds a double fun experience at once, huh? Hahaha. Biasanya nih abis gue ngomong panjang lebar ttg CCIT-FTUI orang bakal lupa terus besoknya nyebut gue kuliah di UI. Yaudah gak salah juga sih, at least for next 2 years. Tau gak? Kesalahan terfatal yang pernah ada adalah ketika gue jelasin ttg CCIT-FTUI besoknya guru BK gue nulis nama gue di papan alumni dengan tulisan dibawah foto "Sistem Informasi - Universitas Indonesia". Great.

       Yea as you know sebenernya cita-cita gue jadi Diplomat. Agak bertentangan ya sama yang gue jalanin dan dari semua jurusan yang pernah nerima gue. Seharusnya gue ambil Hubungan Internasional atau setidaknya jurusan yang berkaitan dengan Sastra. Trust me, I've tried it but I fail. Awalnya cita-cita gue ambil Hubungan Internasional - Universitas Padjajaran. Sumpah itu impian terbesar gue. Entah kenapa gue bisa kepengen banget jadi Diplomat, kerja di Kemenlu, atau KBRI, padahal ortu nentang karena gue cewek. Apa ketidak-diterimanya gue gara-gara restu orang tua ya? Gue berniat nyoba lagi tahun depan tapi gue masih ragu karena gue juga udah bersyukur disini. Ini juga pilihan gue. Gue selalu berfikir mungkin Allah ngasih jalan lain yang terbaik menurut Dia bukan gue. Gue percaya itu. So I enjoy study as an engineering student and as a camouflage of UI's student at FTUI. Wish me a forever luck! :p

Bye.

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Like A Fool by Keira Knightley.

Like A Fool by Keira Knightley.

Posted by Avriana Indarwasti on 11:16 am in mine, random,

We take a chance from time to time
And put our necks out on the line 
And you have broken every promise that we made
And I have loved you anyway
Took a fine time to leave me, hangin' out to dry
Understand now I'm grieving
So don't you waste my time
Cause you have taken all the wind out from my sails
And I have loved you just the same
We finally find this then you're gone
Been chasin' rainbows all along
And you have cursed me
When there's no one left to blame
And I have loved you just the same
And you have broken every single fucking rule
And I have loved you LIKE A FOOL..

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(???)

(???)

Posted by Avriana Indarwasti on 9:02 pm in poetry,

Andai jatuh itu mudah,
Pasti hatiku tidak lebam sendiri seperti ini
Ini lebam karena tanda tanya
Iya, aku pasrah ditimpa tanda tanya
Jika kau ingin tahu, jumlah tanda tanya dikepalaku ini rasanya sebanding dengan jumlah bayangmu di talamus
Boleh aku minta tolong untuk terakhir kali?
Beri aku satu pasti dan semua tanya akan mati.

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Dari Aku...

Dari Aku...

Posted by Avriana Indarwasti on 8:52 pm in poetry,

Kamu tidak akan pernah tahu
Kalau yang disini sudah lama menunggu
Tapi belum direstui saja sama Tuhan
Agar dipertemukan lagi dalam sebuah pertemuan

Kamu terlalu tabu untuk jadi nyata
Kamu terlalu abu untuk dilihat dengan mata
Kamu terlalu indah untuk diucap dalam kata
Tapi kamu adalah fana yang tidak bisa dijelaskan oleh fakta

Lalu aku bisa apa sekarang?
Tetap menunggu atau kemudian pergi?
Harus bertahan atau jatuh karena kelelahan?
Jika kamu sudah tiba, kemarilah dan berjanji untuk terus menetap

Untuk kamu masa depanku

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193014.

193014.

Posted by Avriana Indarwasti on 8:01 am in mine, random,

They said,

"Every hello ends with a goodbye"

But whether it's start of destruction or construction

The dark or enlightenment

Who knows?

Nobody knows

I dont know.

At least for a while.

You teach me a lot of lessons

Even it's only for a few days

And I knew you were trouble for me

But I still forced it

 I believe you will change

Because you ask me the same thing

 Then I realize how stupid I am

 I should believe in nothing

I love you

And you said it too

But our relationship is very complicated

Like very complicated

I can't even say the truth what the problem is

If you said this is the best way

I can't accept it as a best way

I tried so hard to fight this relationship

But you didn't want to fight it back 

Pathetic

Cause if you loved me why do you leave me?

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I Loved You First.

I Loved You First.

Posted by Avriana Indarwasti on 8:34 am in random,

       "Hey dude, what's going on with you?" ask the man to his friend. "Ah I just saw her dating with another man, I was going to tell her that I love her but maybe is too late." he answers. After the complicated conversation between he and his friend, this man walks away then put his guitar and sing his song. And the lyrics is really tell the world that he's in pain that night.

Girl, that should be me driving to your house,
Knocking on your door, kissing you on the mouth,

Pulling on your hand, dancing in the dark.

'Cause I was the only one who loved you from the start.

But now when I see you with him it tears my world apart.

Because I've been waiting, all this time to finally say it.
But now I see your heart's been taken and nothing could be worse.
Baby, I loved you first.
Had my chances, could have been where he is standing.
That's what hurts the most.
Girl, I came so close
But now you'll never know,
Baby, I loved you first.

Girl, that should be me calling on your phone
Saying you're the one and that I'll never let you go.

I never understood what love was really like
But I felt it for the first time looking in your eyes.

I loved you first ‒ why can't you see?

 Then he just pats him on the back because he knows his friend is in pain.. oh, poor this young man.

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FYI

FYI

Posted by Avriana Indarwasti on 7:54 am in mine,

       Before I write another post in my blog, gue mau ngasih informasi buat seseorang diluar sana yang (mungkin) rajin bukain blog gue cuma buat sekedar melepas ke-kepo-annya tentang kehidupan gue yang gapenting-penting amat ini. Bahwa sesungguhnya gak semua post-an gue buat satu orang yang itu-itu aja. (Yea you know what I mean, ok?) Gue kasih tau maksud dari post-an gue sebelum ini yaitu lirik Avril Lavigne - Girlfriend, ya walaupun udah gue kasih caption dibawahnya biar makin paham dan gak geer apalagi sampe ngerasa ini dimaksudkan buat orang yang tidak bersangkutan. Post-an itu untuk orang masa kini bukan masa lalu. Once again, orang masa kini bukan masa lalu. Kan gak mesti semua post-an gue dikasih nama asli dong? Yakaliii. Dan gamesti juga dong gue harus ngasih tau info mendetail tentang maksud post-an gue semua? Yakaliii. Jadi jangan geer lalu merasa kalau post-an blog ini buat lo semua yaa. Done with you, don't let your keponess makes you stupid. Bye. :-)

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Girlfriend ?

Girlfriend ?

Posted by Avriana Indarwasti on 8:28 am in mine,

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don’t like your NEW FRIEND!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
I know it's not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend

You’re so fine
I want you mine
You’re so delicious
I think about you all the time
You’re so addictive
Don’t you know what I could do to make you feel alright (alright, alright, alright)?
Don’t pretend I think you know I’m damn precious
And hell yeah
I’m the motherfucking princess
I can tell you like me too and you know I’m right

She’s like so whatever
You could do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that’s what everyone’s talking about!

I can see the way, I see the way you look at me
And even when you look away I know you think of me
I know you talk about me all the time again and again (again, again, again)
So come over here, tell me what I want to hear
Better yet make your NEW FRIEND disappear
I don’t want to hear you say her name ever again (and again, and again, and again!)

In a second you’ll be wrapped around my finger
'cause I can, 'cause I can do it better
There’s no other
So when's it gonna sink in?
She’s so stupid
What the hell were you thinking?!

       Actually this song is belong to someone who has make my world back into the darkness, woah lebay abis wakaka. Gak into the darkness juga sih. Ini terjadi karena seorang cewek yang sudah punya pacar tapi masih caper sama cowok lain. OMG hellooo, your boyfriend is kinda more handsome than this guy. Lol. But it's true. So why you still "caper caper" with the other boys? Ohh poor your boyfriend, when he knows that his girlfriend such a CABE-CABEAN. #nooffensebitch :)

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Lelucon

Lelucon

Posted by Avriana Indarwasti on 2:49 pm in poetry,

Tuhan merencanakan sesuatu
Lalu kita dipertemukan dalam suatu waktu
Kamu dan aku tidak akan pernah tahu

Entah kamu atau aku yang memulai
Karena waktu membuat kita terbuai

Kupikir semua ini hanya lelucon
Tapi Tuhan membuat ini terasa begitu nyata
Ya kamu takkan pernah tahu rasanya

Tuhan mempertemukan sekali
Lalu sekarang berkali-kali
Tuhan membuatku tahu siapa kamu
Dan begitupula denganmu
Tuhan tahu ini bukan disengaja
Kita pun tentu tahu itu

Aku tidak menyalahkan Tuhan
Aku harap kamu juga
Tuhan justru membantuku untuk membuatmu tahu
Tapi kau terlalu teguh untuk tidak mau tahu
Karena bagimu ini hanya lelucon
Dan aku adalah leluconmu

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Oh, Mr Best!

Oh, Mr Best!

Posted by Avriana Indarwasti on 9:09 pm in poetry,

Oh! Mr Best you are very bad
And all the world shall know it

Take her to the skies with a sweet emotion
In giving such a trust or having a hope?

Like the moonbeam kiss the sea
But she doesn't know whether you love then just leave
Before they are falling asleep

Later they will forget the past
As finely as fast

Oh! Wicked Mr Best!

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Welcome 2014!

Welcome 2014!

Posted by Avriana Indarwasti on 3:09 pm in mine,

       Hi there, you know what? I'm so glad it's 2014 fellaaas! Seriously, gue seneng banget loh 2013 udah lewat. 2013 tuh nge mixed up perasaan gue, lahir dan batin. I thought it will be the best year so far, but then someone has destroyed all of my happiness. Now it becomes 2 persons, Jerk and his Bitch #ifyouknowwhatimean. Ah peduli amat sama masa lalu, gue happy kok sekarang. Gue bisa balik lagi jadi gue yang dulu sebelum ketemu si Jerk. Gini, Sometimes I think that the world is huge and the best way to enjoy it is by being single. It's fun, really. I can pay attention to things I'm really interested in. And I can manage my life in my way. Trust me. Hahaha who needs a boyfriend anyway? Any connection with other human beings can be established through social media. It doesn't mean I don't believe in love anymore, but why we force it if we haven't met 'The One'? In the meantime just enjoy your single life, you don't have to pretend to care about someone. No one nags you. Look around you, you have friends everywhere, right? Gue sadar sekarang buat apasih pusing nyari pacar toh juga Tuhan udah nyiapin jalan-Nya supaya lo bisa ketemu pasangan lo. Gue percaya semua orang diciptain berpasangan. So, don't worry be happy! :D 

       Guys ngomongin 2014, bentar lagi gue kuliah loooooh! AAAAAMIN.. hm UN dulu sih sebenernya. YaAllah, gue berharap banget bisa keterima PTN lewat SNMPTN undangan. Iyalah siapa sih yang gamau? Jadi gue gausah pusing lagi dan tinggal mikirin UN. Gue sebenernya udah keterima di Telkom Bandung jurusan SI lewat JPA (Jalur Prestasi Akademik) ya semacam undangan gitu. Tapi itu kan swasta, ya gue jadiin itu cadangan aja. Gue tetep mau fight buat PTN! Siapapun yang baca, doain yah... :)

       Berhubung gue lama gak ngeblog kemarin, gara-gara syuper syibuk syekali jadi kelas 12, gue ceritain aja sebagian disini. Pokoknya gue lagi seneng akhir-akhir ini, I don't know why but someone is making my life more colorful recently. I never let myself a hope on him. Because he's too good to be mine, I don't expect too much on him. I just enjoy talking and make a good relationship as a friend just like being a brother with his little sister. Gue sayaaaaang banget sama orang yang satu ini, TAPI sekarang cuma sebatas sayang antara adik perempuan dengan kakak cowoknya. Ini nih yang kadang orang gasadar kalo being single is not that bad. Look, enjoy banget kan gue sekarang? Hahaha. Karena hidup gue gak melulu soal mantan bro. Bukan sombong nih, semenjak putus yang deket sama gue banyak. Keluarga gue (iyalah-_-), sahabat-sahabat gue, temen-temen gue, kakak-kakakan gue, dan satu lagi modusan-modusan gue HAHA. Terakhir becanda. Seriously, I'm not that bitchy. I swear! Kadang emang sih kepikiran, if the world is huge, can I eat it all by myself? No, I can't. I should share it with my mate. But damn, back to my question "why we force it if we haven't met 'The One'?" Let it be aja kali ya. Sekian post gue di awal tahun 2014 ini. 

Happy New Year to all of us! Today is the first blank page of a 365 page book.

Write a good one and may the odds be ever in your favor! Mwaaah xx

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